Broken hearts kill

Its hard to hear rumors that you have found someone else. That you are so happy with your life with another girl. Why cant I get over you? Love is something that stays in your heart and if you truely love someone you can never get over them, no matter what. I loved you and living these past three months without you in my life has been the scariest thing I have ever done. I thought you were meant for me and I though God had made us for each other but through the thick and thin we havent lasted. Im glad you are happy now and maybe this will be the one for you. I would take back everything if I could have you back in my life. I had made the biggest mistake of letting you go and I just want to be happy again. I want to be in a Jesus centered relationship. I dont care what people think anymore but I want you back in my life. I would do anything to start all over again. I would do anything to go back to the days of catching each other stare at the gym. I miss it, I miss you, I miss everything. I miss our long talks, fun dates, and relaxing days in Chula Vista. Why cant I get over you?! Help me. Talk to me, pray for me, open your heart. This is the one time I really need you so please be here for me and tell me straight up. I love you so much Chad Wilson and there isnt a day that goes by that I dont think or pray for you and I have many witnesses. I always talk about stories to others of all the fun we had but that doesnt matter anymore. Please just talk to me and have one last heart to heart. It would mean the world to me. I miss you and your family so much and I need you.