Broken hearts kill

Its hard to hear rumors that you have found someone else. That you are so happy with your life with another girl. Why cant I get over you? Love is something that stays in your heart and if you truely love someone you can never get over them, no matter what. I loved you and living these past three months without you in my life has been the scariest thing I have ever done. I thought you were meant for me and I though God had made us for each other but through the thick and thin we havent lasted. Im glad you are happy now and maybe this will be the one for you. I would take back everything if I could have you back in my life. I had made the biggest mistake of letting you go and I just want to be happy again. I want to be in a Jesus centered relationship. I dont care what people think anymore but I want you back in my life. I would do anything to start all over again. I would do anything to go back to the days of catching each other stare at the gym. I miss it, I miss you, I miss everything. I miss our long talks, fun dates, and relaxing days in Chula Vista. Why cant I get over you?! Help me. Talk to me, pray for me, open your heart. This is the one time I really need you so please be here for me and tell me straight up. I love you so much Chad Wilson and there isnt a day that goes by that I dont think or pray for you and I have many witnesses. I always talk about stories to others of all the fun we had but that doesnt matter anymore. Please just talk to me and have one last heart to heart. It would mean the world to me. I miss you and your family so much and I need you.

Not as planned...

Well since this blog didn't work out for the purpose I wanted or really cared about im going to make it my own. No more expressing my feelings through words but just having fun and being me. Thats what I always should of stuck to because thats where I always fall back to. So heres something just for fun!
A - Age: Nineteen
B - Bed size: Queen
C - Chore you hate: ALL OF THEM!
D - Dog's name: Charlie, Delilah, Buck, Bear, and Max
E - Essential start your day item: Toothbrush/Scar cream
F - Favorite color: Gold, Turquoise, and Yellow
G - Gold or Silver: Gold
H - Height: 5'6
I - Instruments you play: absolutely nothing but I would love to learn how to play the Ukelele :)
J - Job title: Team Member at CFA, Student worker at the Qualifying Center, and Full time student
K - Kid(s): None :)
L - Living arrangements: In a dorm with my 3 best friends
M-Mother's name: Seanna Deann Hunter
N - Nicknames: Mel, Em, Emmers, Amelia
O - Overcoming: Insecurity
P- Pet Peeves: When people dont respond back to texts or when my friends call me telling me something i dont want to hear about the love of my life
Q - Quote from a movie: "is butter a carb?"
R - Right or left handed: Right handed
S - Siblings: 2 older sisters, 2 younger sisters, and a younger brother
T - Time you wake up: I sleep till whenever I want :)
U- Underwear: Underwear are a daily necessity
V- Vegetable you don't like: I like them all :)
W - Ways you run late: I'm usually on time, but if I'm late I probably kept changing my outfit
X - X-rays you've had: skull, mouth, and arm
Y - Yummy food you make: easy mac :)
Z - Zoo favorite: panda and giraffe

The New ME

Finally Back to normal! Even though it has only been a few days and my face has healed really fast I felt like it was the longest week of my life! Every trip to the ER, Doctor, or Dentist was just a painful experience! I am so blessed to be feeling about 100% better and im pretty happy the way things turned out!I was able to spend a week in paradise with my family and friends :)

Longboard Tricks!

Well this is me looking like Shrek before I left for California. I was in so much pain and even worse now. Keep me in your prayers!!!

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Looks like everything is getting thrown back in my face, whats done is done and I cant change the past. Im sorry for the hurt and pain but all I can do is work on myself for the present and the future. Im at peace knowing the Lord forgives and keeps no record of wrong. Lord please bless me today and calm my nerves for this interview. You bless me everyday with things I dont even deserve. Thank you for the sun and beautiful weather. Thank you for surrounding me with your glory. I LOVE you Lord! Keep me close to you.
xoxo,
Mel

I Miss This.

"Never take for granted the things that mean the most to you"